THIS APARTMENT

I know I should

but I cannot bring myself

to clean the apartment.

Surely, it would be a healthier environment

one where I could live and work and breathe

existing happily but

if I cleaned

I would no longer find

the brains

which you fucked out of me

when we first met.

And I wouldn't see

the bloody tracks

from where you ripped out my heart

and tripped over it

when you walked out.

And I wouldn�t have easy access

to the guts

I spilled

trying to get you back

in all the wrong ways.

This apartment

in its present status

holds so many memories for me

and I would be loath

to alter it one iota.

I know I should

but I won�t.

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