I'M SO EXCITED
All right
maybe I am a little nervous
a little anxious
a little excited.
Maybe I do have a certain amount of energy
building up
that I need to expel
or explode;
a couple of walls I still need to bounce off of
or through;
a few more hoops to jump through
and then again
or jump out of my skin.
Skin�
I�ve got a right to be nervous.
I haven�t masturbated in a while � it feels like centuries.
I can hear my blood swimming past my skull
feeding me some of what I need
but not all.
I have not masturbated.
I keep thinking of the oceans
the rolling waves
the plump juicy fishies that embody it
the seas� dark wet caress.
How I long to be out there.
How I long to be a seaman
or be surrounded by them.
It has been a time of nerves
of angles.
I am without my usual resources
to calm myself
all because of what I have sworn to do
sworn to be
all because of my secret oath
for you.
I have not masturbated
since I first saw you
and will not again
until I see you last.
So, anyway, I have a right to be nervous.
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