THIS HELL

This is hell.

The most beautiful girl in the world

is beside me

sitting

relaxing, and she

too close to view

does not know

she's on my blind side

does not know about the bursting pulse in my leg

which she touches

does not hear me desperately sniff her soap

her deodorant

her perfume�

I am as close to her as I will ever be

and cannot experience any of her

not here

not so close

in this hell.