BEFORE

I am ordering pizzas

stockpiling beers

searching out blues CDs

and finding old sweatpants.

I am researching my ancient comfort zones

knowing I will need them again

and soon.

I am remembering olden times

when I knew how to be alone

before anything else

was unimaginable.

I am preparing to imagine those earlier ages.

I am getting restless

I am anticipating the battle

I am awaiting a reckoning

and I reckon

it shall be appalling.

I know

what comes will be dire

I fear

the future is awful

I await what is soon to come.

I am steeling myself

for our eventual conversation.

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