RUNNING TO YOU

My chest is beating mercilessly

I am trying

I am struggling

I am seeking to run to you.

But it's so hard

it's tougher to climb these heights

to race the distance between us.

I am ragged, I my pulse rushes

I am ruminating on falling down dead

decrepit

as a better way

to end this run.

I am on my way to something

but I am afraid it is not what I sought.

I'm worried I'm not running to you

but away from something else

something I don't understand

something so far, now

that I'll never know.

And I don't know what I'm talking about

don't know if these speeding thoughts

make sense

or blur as I pass them by.

I don't know if I'm thinking too fast

or too slow

or at all.

I don't know what's going on anymore

maybe I just need to breathe more carefully

calm down

and ride this out.

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