THE FIRST

I never thought I was this dumb

so oblivious to what was before me.

You were before me

and now you're not.

I thought we...

I thought we would stand the test of time

be together forever

or at least the foreseeable future.

I was so wrong.

I was so stupid.

All the future holds is you

in his arms

and me

me here, failing horribly

at everything I put my mind to.

I was so ignorant of the dynamics

the physics of our relationship.

I thought we would last

but you were just testing me out

feeling how to handle the situation

seeing what it was like.

I hoped you were the last girl I would ever hold

but you saw me

clearly, merely as your first.

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