DESPERATELY SEEKING
I looked everywhere for you
or some remnant of you
or anything that had anything to do with you.
I looked in our old apartment
I looked in your new apartment
I looked in the hospital
the homes
the holy places
the hearth
the heart? I looked everywhere!
I guess you're really gone.
I guess you really left.
I interviewed relatives
I argued with employers
I attacked institutions,
insinuating implications about your exodus and arrival.
By then, of course,
the quest had long since ceased to be rational,
merely an event finding its own increasing speed, a desperate need,
like trying to peek under her dress,
all for a glimpse of panty.
Who the hell cares about panties?
Still, I searched.
I sought signs.
I yearned to find you
or some part of you
or some evidence of you.
I found nothing.
I guess you're gone.
I guess you left.
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