TATTOO II
You have to understand
there is much in my past
that prides me not at all.
There were ways � so many ways -
where I was lost
and might still be
if not for you.
I was foolish for so long
in so many ways
with so many people
whom I abused
even as I abused myself.
I have drunk myself stupid
and put poisons into my body
that I couldn�t believe at the time
or ever after.
I have been dumb
and I�ll be silent about it
no more.
But what you ask
is unnecessary.
What you request
unrequired.
I have mutilated myself
with her name
worn my heart off my sleeve
as I identified
with the former flame.
I loved her once
but no more.
I named her publicly
on my arm
with ink and blade
but she is just about forgotten.
You would have me excise my past
remove her evidence from my body
but it is too late.
She is gone from everywhere that matters.
In the darkness
there is only you.
In the night, when there�s nothing else to see
I see your face
While I hold her on my skin
I hold you under it.
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