PORCELAIN

As I lay here

in my bathroom

crippled, crying

crushed by my own innards

vomiting out everything foreign

(and much that is not)...

sitting, stewing

spewing and retching

and renching out gut-twisting amounts of alcohol

- more than I could possibly remember consuming...

As I wait for another day to pass

and me to get off my ass

and become a man that's far less crass...

As I hurt

as I ache

as I break down

again and again and again

all in this same position

all in this same day

I realize

I'm not quite over you.