HATE
I should hate you
and I do
sometimes
but really
I just can't hold it together.
More often than not
I think of you well
imagine you with a smile on my face
consider you sweetly
happily
lovingly.
I wish I did not.
I wish I could remember you
the way you were
hard and cruel
and evil to the extreme.
I wish I could know the truth
that I think of so often
but somehow
something you do
in some way I will never be able to explain
the real you remains in my blind spot.
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