IRON
It's getting harder to hate you.
God knows, I try
but I'm finding it more difficult
to find fuel for this fire.
There's an old chestnut I'd like to burn
how absence makes the heart grow fonder
but its converse is true, too.
The longer you're away
the harder it is to say 'I hate you.'
I wish it weren't so.
I wish I could maintain the purity
of this small cold thing within
that allows me mobility
strength and resolve
in these troubled times.
Without my hate
what would I become?
I need you
as I ever did
but in a more important way.
Memories of you are all
that keep me the man I am.
And yet,
day after day
the longer you're away
the harder it is
to hate you.
And no amount of exercises
or projections
or therapy
seem to change this.
I guess I just have to see you again
if only to stoke these flames
presently so endangered.
I'm sure it will not take me long
to recall
my true feelings for you.
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